All I Want for Christmas is My Two Front Teeth

Yes ! I literally want my two front teeth ! Not that I don't have them, but my two front teeth can do a little crowning and whitening to enhance their looks, since they will be staying around for a few more decades.

Ok, whats Christmas without a wish list ! Here goes :

1. Brand New Laptop! Esp : Portege® Notebook Family: R400 Series !

2. Full Body Slimming Pakage from Marie France Bodyline!

3. A Romantic Trip to Paris !

4. Perfect Career !

Lets hope all will come true ! If not, I still have my favorite Dome Espreski to hope for *grin*

Season's Greetings Everyone !

The Walk of the year

I must congratulate myself for walking the impossible 10km journey that I never thought of finishing. Thanks to Charng's encouragement ( and also the lack of bus that they promise to send out to pick lazy people like me )


But how come I dont feel any lighter ?

Breaking The 12-6 Rule

A very long time ago, this rule was established to cure my constant gastric pains. Yes at 12pm noon and 6pm evening, I MUST BE FED, it doesn't matter if I'm hungry or not, it doesn't matter if I've just had a small snack an hour before, I must be fed with proper meal. No buns or biscuits to relief the hunger first, it will simply trigger the gastric.

For about a year plus, I never had soft drinks, McD burgers, KFC , and all kinds of fatty food. Happily, the gastric went away together with my weight.

Now, or 5 months ago, I had no choice but to break the rule, because of work and gluttony, I took for granted what I have worked so hard to achieve, and look what I've gotten myself into ( besides the extreme weight gain)

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SIGH

Its back, the pain, the suffering and the frustration.

Personal Time

I love mornings, every morning I love breathing in the fresh air walking alone quietly towards my office. Who doesnt? When you have to face all kinds of crap at work later on, one should really cherish their silent mornings with themselves.

But, sadly, my mornings are all ruined by someone I call The Morning Spoiler. I don't hate this morning spoiler of mine, but I really just wish morning spoiler could talk to me at some other time.

I already hate driving to work in the morning, now this morning spoiler just adds to the list of the things I hate in the morning. The moment I stop my car, I would have to look around for morning spoiler's car, just to get myself ready with a big smile. As if smiling is not tiring enough, I have to open my mouth to talk, which is already half of the energy I charged the night before. Sigh. Someone please help me !

I have tried so many ways to avoid this horrible phenomena, but am still failing pathetically !

I've tried :

1. Pretending to be busy on the phone/ smsing someone frantically - Can't work, I am a bad actress, I always have to pretend back like I did not manage to contact the person I was finding, and start a conversation with morning spoiler.

2. Grab my bag and jump off the car as soon as I turn off the engines and fly to the office - Can't work, morning spoiler will ask me to wait up !

3. Walk EXTREMELY slow so that morning spoiler will think I am too far away and decide to walk first - CANT WORK !!!! Morning spoiler will stand there and WAIT !

UGH ! What kind of loser is that? Find someone else's morning to destroy !

GIVE ME BACK MY MORNINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You will be missed

It feels weird sitting here writting this entry, knowing somehow you are not here anymore. Eventhough we don't live under the same roof, but the thought of not being able the visit you again brings tears to my eyes.

In a short 7 days, things have changed so much. Last week, your presence did not appear to be significant to me, but now your absence seems unbearable. I miss you so much.

Its hard continuing this entry without constantly walking towards the fan to dry my eyes.

I still remember the day I got the message about you being in the hospital. My heart sank when I saw how frail you were lying on the bed, I felt so helpless , not knowing how to make you feel better. Never have I felt I loved you so much, until that moment, and it was too late. When I left that very night, it never occured to me, you were leaving me forever.

I can't stop but remember the younger days when you were the boss of all of us, you would scold us when we were naughty, but in the end you will still buy us all ice-cream soda and junk food from the nearby sundry shop. Sometimes I feel like I can still hear your laughter and voice.

Fast forward to last year, when I was back for my internship, that was the time when I get to know you all over again, the older you, the weaker you. It was my turn to take care of you, my turn to care of you, but I did a bad job compared to what you have done.

We are constantly being occupied by insignificant things we hold so dear, and neglect the people dearest to us. Tomorrow is always the word we hang by our lips when it comes to our loved ones. And we never stop to plan for the future when we should pause and do what we should do for today.

I know you are watching over all of us up there with Him, but my mind still cannot register that. It feels like you are at home , going about your usual activities, waiting for my visit, waiting for the only request you have on me which I can never fulfil forever.

I am sorry kong

I miss you.

Investments

Despite the lack of funds in my accounts and the miserable non-existing YEB, I am still investing in one of girl's most prized assets - The Skin. (retail therapy is always good for a girl's soul)

"A person's physical appearance is the first thing seen by others in social situations. The skin is one of the most important components of an individual's physical appearance. In man, the face has evolved to become one of the most important visual tools in communication with thirty or more muscles to control facial expressions alone. The skin on the face, and secondly on the hands is therefore under almost constant scrutiny during normal day-to-day life.



In addition, beauty is a visual impression of form or colour. It is also a subjective appreciation of that quality, as not all objects defined as beautiful by one will be found as such by another. However, in any one particular society, there will generally be much agreement as to what or who is beautiful or attractive."



SEE, this is why we must all invest in good skin care. I am thankful of what I have now and I am not complaining here. But, I could see brown spots and freckles appearing, and soon, FINE LINES, before it turns to WRINKLES!

How come being a girl in the modern world is so complicated? You gotta work, take care of the family, take care of your weight, take care of your skin, take care of your husband, take care of your kids. When guys just take care of the pay cheque they get every month?

What Have I Gotten Myself Into?

I think I am getting crazier and crazier, with everything that is going on right now, I still can sign up for a journey I don't think I can finish.

Guess this could be a good encouragement for me to hit the gym more often, but also to eat more because I need the energy?

I FEEL...

ANGRY

IRRITATED

DISTURBED

MISTREATED

MISUNDERSTOOD

DEPRIVED

UNACCEPTED

UPSET

DISPIRITING

SICK

COMFORTLESS

NOT BELONG

HOPELESS

BITTER

DEJECTED

UNFORTUNATE

TROUBLED

MISERABLE

LOST

UNHAPPY

DOWN

HEARTBROKEN

BITTER

Love is in the air

I have a sudden feel to watch fantasy love stories ! Its time to do more girly girl stuff after all the macho machine battles at work. Hope this can replace my compulsive eating disorder.

Can't wait for the overdose of sweetness! *grin grin grin*




p/s : I know I am very out of date, this is because my housemates, no, ex-housemates did not share it with me, because I was too busy studying?!?! who is too busy for love ? :P

Life goes on

Today is one of those days you just feel very bad about yourself.

I woke up feeling powerless and heavy.

I draged myself to work feeling sleepy.

I worked feeling dissatisfied and unhappy.

I ate feeling nauseous and fat.

I drove home feeling tired.

I ate feeling guilty.

I ate again, feeling more guilty.

and I ate again, feeling sorry.

Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween people! Yes, its another day worth celebrating. Was contemplating a meal in TGI, cuz I really miss the mud pie. But then I successfully resisted ! hooray !

Stressogluttonism

I finally decided to jump on my dusty weighing scale and got the shock of my life. I have gained tremendous weight,again.

It never come across to me I have something wrong within myself. Being a glutton, I thought I was just enjoying the food I love. Until a friend of mine asked me, am I alright?


After the conversation, I sat down and started thinking. Is there really something wrong that is making me eat so much ?


I guess there is - Stress.



STRESS EATING -They set off emotional and chemical reactions in your body that can temporarily make you feel calm or powerful. When your stress meter goes up, food can have a calming affect, but only for a short time. It also brings many problems, starting with excessive weight gain. Stress eating is often followed by painful self-judgment that can actually drive you to reach for more food.


It has been a few stressful months for me after graduation. From job hunting to living with my parents, my world has turned 180 degrees upside down.


Learning something totally new at work is stressful, in addition learning something which I have not much interest is like adding salt to the wound. Besides technical difficulties, I also have to try my best to fit in to the crowd, people with different rankings and background. I have never been good with people, now I'm thrown into a sea with 1001 kinds of fishes.


At home, it feels like a teenager all over again. After 5 years of independence outside home, I am used to minding my own business, never have to report my presence or anything of that sort. Small expectations from my parents always makes me feel uneasy, like knowing my mom is waiting for me to come back home to eat dinner with them. It just makes me feel like I have to rush my work to go home to another work (eating dinner).


On the whole, I believe I am a temper free person. I am always in a good and happy mood. If I were having a bad day, an ice-cream can cheer me up easily (food AGAIN). But, when faced with someone who has mood-swings worse than PMS, the effect is like a Dementor's Kiss -sucks out all the happiness in you. How can this not create stress? When the happiness is lost, I need to eat to fill up the void !

Everyday, I just cant stop feeling very guilty inside, the constant guilt inside creates stress too. Especially after work, what I put inside my mouth can be a lot more than what I have eaten earlier in the day. The feeling of chewing something inside my mouth just makes me feel better, even drinking a cup of "kao kao" milo makes me feel good. And my best and worst friends : local biscuits - heong piah, tau sa piah and black sugar biscuits. They are ALWAYS, ALWAYS available at my house! How can I ignore their cries to eat them?

So whats wrong? What have I become? Where did all my determination to reach 24 go? Was so close to the goal, yet now so far I cant see it anymore.

Even the opening of Forever 21 in Penang is not helping, when I look at my fat-self looking back in the mirror, I just feel like having a piece of cheesecake later to cheer up, instead of skipping my dinner.

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Mud pie anyone? ( don't look that happy in the picture, notice the forced smile, but sorry, I just gotta have it ! )

Loosen up

It has been really really REALLY long since I've behaved like a crazy person dancing with total strangers, in fact, I am not even sure if I have done that in my life! I always believe in being prim and proper, keeping my poise around friends that I don't know very well which always give others the feeling that I am cold and unfriendly.

But, bringing my bestie to this party is one of the best moves! I never knew mingling with people is such a breeze. Check out the pictures !





Oktober Fest

Cheersss

Good Looking people


I don't know what I'm doing


Strangers? or best friends?


blekkkkkkkkk

yayyyyyyyyyyy

lady with hat

I love penang tOO !

Reality Check

5 days of Raya Holidays for everyone in my company ! Hooray ! When the email was sent to every employee, in their mind, thoughts of going back hometown, bringing children for trips, spending time with loved ones and surely shopping flew across everyone's head. I was excited, because I don't have to work; but not excited when I predict a big chunk of my salary will vanish very soon.

Yes, I've always loved holidays, it means shopping, shopping and more shopping. With all the big malls waiting for me in KL especially Pavilion and The Gardens, I should be on cloud nine. BUT, no. I was afraid in fact. Afraid of my hard earned money going into some rich man's pocket for selling me a piece of useless cloth. Girls in the mall carry LV bags walking in Stuart Weitzman's heels and Juicy Couture outfits, where did all the money come from?

The Pavilion

The Gardens

I can't agree more with Charng on her post about money. It has never occured to me that one day I will think of my finances so much, I forgot how much I weigh. ( now thats why I am gaining kilos! )

I've been trained to live within a budget ever since primary school, thanks to my mom for giving me a monthly pocket money to manage myself. Until university days, I thought I was doing a good job, never having to ask my mom for extra cash to buy that dream phone or some expensive techno gadget. Cosmetics, clothes and shoes are all bought under my well planned budget, never overspending on credit cards.

So I thought, my future salary would be sufficient to let me continue my lifestyle ( since it is more than my pocket money) In addition, I could even afford a car ! Happily, I purchased a car and started working life, thinking my finances are again well planned out. I even give my parents a fix amount of allowance every month.

Up until today, only I knew I have forgotten something, something so important that I've heard of since I was in kindergarden, but never practised - SAVING. My only savings ? The little box on my desk that collects my change everytime I feel my wallet is growing too fat with coins.

Right now, I have a new assignment on the list, SAVE ( funny how this word has only 1 letter different with my previously favorite word - SALE , and both L and V are letters in my name, coincidence ? )

The more I read in newspapers and magazines about financial planning the more worried I become. I am a paranoid of all things. People are talking about retirement nest egg in their 20s and children education fund even without the ring on their finger. Then comes the buzz word : Investment. Be it in property, unit trust, business watsoever, as long as it is not in FD. FD is out ( according to the articles ) it earns nothing to beat the inflation rate ( another very foreign word in my dictionary )

Its scary reading all those articles, thinking if I don't save up now, I'll end up sitting by the roadside begging for money. How do people, esp. rich tai tai have so much money in their bank account? Will I be one of them in the future? Will I ever feel secure enough to stop working and start retiring?

Enough about adult problems, lets get back to happy world !

My trip to The Pavilion isn't that sour watching people buying things I can't afford ( or can't fit in *sob* ) the sweet part came when I reached J.Co. Donuts! ( there is no cure for me anymore, since my wallet isn't getting fatter, I've decided to fatten myself )

Yup, eating spree again ! Whhee .. 2 dozens of J.Co donuts!

Someone PLEASE wake me up! I MUST get back in shape!

Sinful Weekend

Woke up lazily on Saturday morning feeling hungry, ( as always ) without a second thought, brought my favorite jar of bicuits into the bedroom and started munching while continuing my tv series marathon. Always believe I should give myself a break after a hard week of work. Then apple called me for lunch. Feeling lazy, and knowing we wont be going anywhere special, I simply put on watever is nearest to my reach in my cupboard, drew my eyebrows and waited for him.

He just drove without telling me where were we heading. And finally, we reached Bella Italia! ( Argh, I have no make-up on, dressed like aunty, and have hair that look like a mop )

But, who cares !

A rainy saturday at a romantic Italian restaurant *bliss*

Crostini A. Aglio ( aka Garlic Bread )

Linguini Con Aragosta

Calzone Rustico

After the sinful lunch, comes sinful desert. Since we were already at Belissa Row, we conveniently stopped by Hagan Dazs.

YUM !

Its all coming back

4 eventful months after graduation, my drama series life is back on track!
Welcoming back my favorite, Desperate Housewives.

The housewives

The series just cant stop to be more interesting. Another reason I love this series is watching the beautiful body of Gabrielle Solis. Everything about her is so perfect. Just never stop admiring her luscious hair and flawless makeup!

Eva Logoria

Sexy Eva Longoria

And also welcomng back, America's Next Top Model Cycle 9. The show is getting a little routine, hope they come up with something new and fresh. So far no favourite girl, but I'm looking forward to see more of Saleisha.

Top Model contestants

Then we have Heroes! The season's premiere introduced another special power, a person with Midas Touch. Can't wait for more surprises !

Heroes

Followed by Survivor China. Was a big fan of survivor after its first few seasons, then somehow school work ( and other drama series ) made me lost interest in this reality show, but after watching Survivor Fiji with interesting characters such as Yao Man and Earl, I am expecting a lot from this new season.

Outwit, Outplay, Outlast

Last but not least, introducing Gossip Girls -an American television teen drama. Gossip Girls revolves around the lives of socialite young adults growing up on New York's Upper East Side who attend elite academic institutions while dealing with sex, drugs, and other teenage issues.

Gossip Girls

Sounds a lot like The O.C, so I'm investing my time on this series. Stil not used to the unfamiliar faces, but am liking female character Blair Waldorf (Leighton Meester) who resembles Summer Roberts ( The O.C ) and Brooke Davis ( One Tree Hill ). Male character Nate Archibald (Chace Crawford).

Casts

Blair Waldorf (Leighton Meester)

Summer Roberts ( Rachel Bilson )

Brooke Davis ( Sophia Bush )

Nate Archibald (Chace Crawford)

Great friends, good food

T.G.I.F everyone! In working life, fridays are so very precious, and most of the time I am in the best of mood after work, no matter what happened at work.

Today after work, I happily drove to the restaurant I was suppose to meet up with my friends. Always enjoy having friday dinners with this group of friends. We can talk about anything from relationship issues to travelling experience. Dinner from 6 plus just flew fly by until the shop waitress had to clean the table and hint us they are closing.

Looking forward to the next gathering!

Where is my manolo !

After knowing one of my favorite series -Sex and the City, is in production ( from jiin ), I am so excited !!!

Enjoy !

Carrie (Sarah Jessica Parker) is fearlessly fashionable: her style ranges from uptown chic to whimsy to sex kitten. Stilettos are a staple, and Field mixes designer with flea market finds for Carrie's unique look.







Samantha (Kim Cattrall) wears sexy styles that exude confidence.She is a Woman (with a capital "W") and the message comes across loud and clear through strong styles and bold color.

Charlotte (Kristin Davis) has a sweet, preppy style that is always accompanied by the proper bag and shoes. Bows, cute prints and feminine styles play up the kind nature of her character

Miranda (Cynthia Nixon) looks like a very well-dressed career gal with chic corporate suits and androgynous styles.

The show has been enormously influential on fashion. Here, a look at some of the trends the show has trumpeted over the years:

Stilettos ( i have cheap ones )
Must-have designer bags ( dun have *sob* )
Great coats ( dun have also *sob sob* )
The bob ( maybe, soon? )
Flower pins ( not interested )
Initial necklaces ( some )
Designer wedding chic ( no *cry* )

Get the look

Face facts: you are never going to look as fabulous as Carrie and Company do every minute of their lives. ( SO SAD !!!!!! )

Even Carrie's seemingly thrown-together ensembles are the creation of a very talented costuming team, which selects up to 50 outfits for each show. ( I ALSO WANT COSTUME TEAM ! )

You can, however, add some of the glamorous girlie looks to your wardrobe with these tips:

Mix high and low

What this means is simply learning to mix flea market finds with designer or wear high-end fashions in unexpected ways.

For example, the SATC characters wear designer duds out of context (Miranda once wore Jean Paul Gaultier for pajamas) or in a new way (Carrie wore a Chanel top backward with a kerchief). Try this yourself by pairing a simple white tank with a luxe jacket; wear stilettos with jeans; mix a modern top with a vintage skirt.


It's all in the shoes

Toss the Birkenstocks and opt for sky-high mules, sandals and pumps ,the more expensive, the better ( I need to find a sponsor first ) Comfort is not the key here ( i am alright with that) : long legs are the point (dont have this). If you have the legs for it, go bare-legged. Otherwise, try super-sheer pantyhose. And of course, a perfect pedicure is required.


Dress on trend or slightly ahead

Can't bear to part with your hippie chic duds? Well, the "Sex and the City" gals wouldn't be caught dead in something so blatantly last year. Subscribe to every fashion magazine and read the Fashion website religiously.


Be prepared to drop a bundle

Price out a typical designer outfit and it can easily run in the thousands. That's probably why the producers made Carrie's apartment such a dump, all that rent money being blown on $500-a-pop Manolos.


"Sex and the City" favorite designer labels

Manolo Blahnik
Richard Tyler
Jimmy Choo
Dolce & Gabbana
Fendi
Dior
Blumarine
Chanel
Chloe
Prada
Roberto Cavalli

Sigh, I want to be like them, how? HOW? HOWWWWWW????????

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